The Confused Memory

Some memories surface in a confused manner. So why did I include this one? Because they do sometimes come jumbled up and it takes time and effort to figure out what belongs together and what doesn't. Sometimes one never figures it out and has to just accept it as it is. Confused.

Flashes of a reddish brown horse. I am in a stable with it, then out on a trail riding it. I can't seem to get set on any specific memory. A flash of standing with the horse at night in a dark town or village. I am looking or watching for someone or something while I stand with the animal. The memory has changed to....I'm standing in the woods at night. I am hiding in some trees. It is very dark out. I am waiting for something or someone. It's not cold out because I am just wearing my Uhlans uniform. I am looking at an area where there is a lamp that is bright yellow. Everywhere else is dark. I think there is a table. It is either a camp ground or someone's private garden. I have no idea what I am doing here. I see wooden chairs and something that looks like benches.

I think I am with someone. He is taller than me. He stands behind me to my right. I think I might have another friend to my left. We are waiting or watching for someone. I don't think this is anything official. It feels more like mischief. We see people sit in the area that we were watching and then we decide to leave. This is weird. The three of us step out of the shrubs and are out on a park or street area where there is lighting. This lighting is very white in color and is very bright. I keep seeing a flash of Allmenröder's and Reinhardt's faces, but I don't seem to be able to look directly at my companions.

We walk together down a road and away from that brightly lit area. That area gives me the impression of being a really large open building like a hangar. (Zeppelins?) The road turns and the trees bring darkness and the natural sounds of night like bugs and animals moving about.