After Festner's Death

I'm alone in a tavern or perhaps the mess hall.  I am unsure since I am very drunk and it is very dark in there.  Beside me is a table with a music box on it.  My chair is at the end of the table, and it is facing away from the table at about 90 degrees.

The music box is playing a tune that I find very saddening.  In my left hand I'm holding a stein and it is sort of half on the ground, tilted and some beer is spilling out.  I stare at the wall and It seems that I'm really looking beyond the wall.

I push the music box off the table and it crashes to the ground. Standing up I throw the stein at the wall and it shatters.  Kicking open the door I decide to go to the Stone Bridge.  I sit on the edge of the bridge and think about jumping in.  After much thinking I decide to camp out in the woods instead.  I just want to be alone.